The title, WHO CAN KNOW THE HEART, refers to a Bible verse in Jeremiah. I settled on this because it seemed to fit the narrative of deceit – better than Long Distance Running, that is. Self-examination was the index marker in the topical reference from which I located the scripture. I’m talking about critical contemplation, not naval gazing. I’m after what scholars call reflexivity or the bending back of one’s meanings and practices or social codes to consider life, in all its treachery, with fresh eyes — shining a flashlight into unlit corners to trouble what is taken for granted.  In The Blue Guitar John Banville writes about looking back with different eyes. Here the narrator is questioning life with its “pinholed” and “punctuated” glimpses into the “sly magic” of the mirror and how the looking glass both deceives and makes clear. I appreciate difficult questions, and in this chapter of my life I continue to pursue paths of resistance – not of least resistance but as Robert Frost put it, “the road less traveled.” As one of my colleagues said to me after I left the university, not much has changed.